It’s 1.55 am now…I feel so so so so depressed now…ever since I enter f6,my life is totally changed!Not as naïve as last time…this may be a good thing for me,I guess…Sumtimes I just feel that I’m too over protecting by sumone else…this let me feel that I’m just a useless person…I scare I will used 2 it, and I will be always depend on others!In the future how can I survive in this cruel reality??I’m not that weak…I want 2 depend on myself….but,everytime,I started 2 build my self-confident, “u” jz like pouring cool water on me!I jz wanna try 2 prove myself that I can b independent!but seems like “u” din giv any chance 2 me 2 prove that I can be like others…i tried 2 grab whatever opportunities that can prove myself that I can do it!but seems like…is useless…………………
OK!i admit that I cares about others opinion towards me…How ppl think about me,how others speak 2 me!so,I more eager 2 prove myself that I really can do it!”u” really stands a very important place in my heart,so,I dun want 2 hurt ur feelings…I tried 2 tell “u” about this…but seems like “u”does’nt understand my feelings…Maybe “u” jz want 2 protect me from getting hurt!But,please!Give me sum empty space 2 prove myself and privacy!
